Today has been a day of mixed emotions. As we await the confirmation of the next chapter of our lives, it falls on the one year anniversary of the passing of the light of my life, Lexi. I wanted to write a tribute to her when she passed, but it's something I just couldn't put into words, and here I am a year later, and still can't articulate the feelings and emotions I felt, and feel for that little white dog. This has been the first whole year of my adult life that didn't include her. When my soul dog, her boxer sister passed in 2012, I told Lexi she was going to have to take all of the love that was for Maddie, and not always happy about it lol she did just that, and more. She came into my life exactly when I needed her, and turned out to be my best friend and shoulder to cry on, and the only truly consistent thing in my life for nearly 16 years. I try to remind myself to be grateful for the time I had with her, but it's so hard to not feel guilty, and wish for more. I can only hope that she knew how loved she was in her time on this earth. She was part of everything possible. She traveled the country with us in a cargo van doing tech work. She flew with us. She went on errands. She went to the river, hiking, and held her own with the big dogs. She was my child. Even though George seemingly fell out of the sky, fitting perfectly into our family, and being exactly what I needed again, no one will ever be able to fill the void she left. I don't know what happens after this life, but I hope I get to see her happy bunny hopping scamper again some day. And on that note, here's to 2019 being everything we're hoping for and then some!
Some of the photos I want to share of Lexi are on my computer that isn't hooked up atm, so I will update this soon! She loved the beach, so until then, here are a couple of photos of her there :)
Pensacola Beach, FL
I took the dogs on a Florida road trip, and Pensacola Beach was our first stop! This was her very first time seeing the ocean, and I love this photo <3
Smyrna Dunes, FL
This was her last beach visit, and sadly wasn't great. We took our anniversary trip to Florida so we could take them with us, knowing it'd be her last vacation, and how much she loved the beach. We didn't get to the beach early enough, and we had to rush, and carry her most of it. She wandered around some while I photographed Jake, and I almost didn't even get this one. She hated the camera, but I knew it was my last chance. It's not perfect, and it breaks my heart I don't have more, but I have it.